Everyday seems to be a series of mixed emotion. Joyful, yet sorrowful. Unknowing, yet peaceful. Trusting, yet vulnerable. Understanding, yet so so confused. This emotional cocktail upped the ante this week as we finally booked a date for our c-section. The date is set for Monday, March 31st. A flood of thoughts, feelings, and prayers …
You would think by now I would stop waiting, hoping even, for answers to come. Deep in my heart I know they won’t come at all on this side of heaven. To be honest most of the questions I have had throughout this time, I am glad God did not answer them immediately or reveal …
Sadness welled up in me on Sunday. Tears come unexpectedly these days and I am usually unprepared and, of course, in public places. We were singing one of my favorite songs in church “In Christ Alone.” I was praising God, doing fine, and then this line came: From life’s first cry to final death… In …
I love this little boy so much already. I think its partly because I know my time with him is short so I spend time thinking about him, praying for him and loving him even more so than I usually do during pregnancy. Another woman who carried a Potter’s Syndrome baby called it “Packing a …