The truth is, yes, I am afraid. Actually very afraid. I am afraid I will just stop functioning. That my kids, my husband, my home, my life will keep moving…but me? That I will just freeze. Unable to move forward because of the hurt and the pain. I am afraid that there will not be …
Everyday seems to be a series of mixed emotion. Joyful, yet sorrowful. Unknowing, yet peaceful. Trusting, yet vulnerable. Understanding, yet so so confused. This emotional cocktail upped the ante this week as we finally booked a date for our c-section. The date is set for Monday, March 31st. A flood of thoughts, feelings, and prayers …
There was a time, not too long ago, where disappointments and things not going as planned really took me down. I never handled either very well and I would mope around like a little girl who just dropped her ice cream on the floor. These days are proving to be a little different. I still …
I hadn’t felt Gideon move for a day or so. Deep down I knew he was still with me, I knew he was still here, but I felt like I needed to call the doctor. Problem is, I have been hating going to the doctor’s. Everytime I would walk through the front doors I would …