I am going to be honest, thinking about tomorrow really freaks me out. Before Gideon I naively thought that tomorrow would always be wonderful, full of everything good and easy all the time. Now I am constantly tempted to look at the future always in fear. Grimly thinking that tomorrow will be full of more loss, more …
It has been really hard for me to write lately. Everytime I would try, everything just sounded so sad. But over and over again I kept thinking “this can’t be it.” This can’t just be the way it is going to be from now on…there has to be more to grief than sadness. There just …
I prayed for a legion of God’s Angels to be with us that day. I prayed that God would bring peace and comfort to Gideon in a way that only HE can. I prayed that I could find joy, deep joy in meeting my son. I prayed for this all to happen in God’s timing …
Two weeks. I literally cannot believe it. I never thought I would be here. I never thought these days would come, yet here I am awaiting the days to say hello and goodbye to my sweet fourth child. If you would have told me in November that come March 18th I would still be pregnant …